The Golden Sin

Yes.... as you saw in one of the comments from mr. clueless in my previous post.... he asked to know some more about the 'eternal sin'

Most of y'all know me fairly well by now...and I thrive for anything juicy and raunchy...
But patience grasshoppers....

First... a general update.
First of all...really really... i really thank you all for stopping by and leaving a comment. i barely visit my own blog...
The new job is great...the people are nice... (most of them atleast!)... Things are just extremely busy... And my energy level is at an all time low...
I can barely stay up past 10pm...
Gone are the days when I could survive on 3-4 hrs of sleep...
Most of time goes with work and surrounding work... and the rest of my time watching TV and thinking of my beloved in California...

Needless to say...the job and my lack of ability to stay up until the wee hours of the morning, has greatly influenced me and Tom...
we barely get to talk..
It is almost at the point where we talk only once a week.... it's a good couple hr long conversation...
Otherwise I try to squeeze a phonecall or two..and whenever I do get a chance to call him I end up waking him up!
But he has said that I have special rights and can call him any time!
:-)
He is a darling...

Since moving out and since I started working... things have been up and down for us... We have had a few arguments about things that now seem stupid and meaningless...
But we are sailing strong...
I have never loved anyone as much as I love him... and most importantly I think he is among the few people that truely care about me.
:-)

And yes... now to the juicy stuff...
LOL unfortunately there isn't really much to say when it comes to me... since we don't talk much... I say that we have become the somewhat vanilla couple...
I don't think we can ever be completely vanilla... the lifestyle that I talked about in my big reveal post is a big part of who we both are...

BUT.... I still have something to say about it....

Tom told me about this movie called 'The Secretary' a few times before...
And some time back I actually got to see the movie...

It is a very interesting... at times weird... but very amazing...
It is a little glimpse of the lifestyle...
And for those that are somewhat intrigued and interested in BDSM or even in what I mentioned about it.... I would really recommend checking out this movie...
Starring James Spader and Maggie Gyllenhaal... this movie started out as being so weird...and then ended so beautifully...
It kinda shows how real this lifestyle can be...
It brings out the darkside...and the darkest parts of the darkside...

It is a beautiful love story...

I don't want to give too much away...
I thought the movie was absolutely pointless until half way through...
But now... I absolutely love it...

Here I am going to add a clip promoting the movie...It is long...but I would check it out if I were you....
Hope you guys like it!



Let me know what you think...

I will try to get more into blogging and post more...and catch up on all your blogs!
Take care all!
Miss you guys!

After A Long Time Again

It's always nice to see your nice comments on my blog...thanks to all your comments and returning visits.
Things are just fine with me...
Just extremely busy... that is the easiest way to sum up the past few months!

Again, thank you all for your good wishes!

Will write later,
Take Care
~Bhumi

MY LOVE

OK do me a favor and if you see the video playing...skip about the first minute and a half and enjoy GOOD MUSIC!
PS - CRANK UP THE VOLUME!
I am soo damn addicted to this song by Justin Timberlake ft. TI

CLICK HERE for the lyrics...tooo damn fucking good...
my goal is to atleast get one more person obsessed with this song..
lol
anyone wanna join hte club?? jk!

Not in a mood to write more...
Job and everything is going on fine...
I still dont have internet...but hopefully I'll be getting it soon...

*fingers crossed*

And Another Update!!

Allright...another update time.
First of all...I am sorry I have not replied to the comments in the previous posts. I really appreciate you all dropping by and saying things!!

So... the past 2 weeks have been really busy and hectic. It was non stop interviews and more long drives.
But... it was all worth it. The good news... I FINALLY did get an offer which I have accepted!
It's a 2.5 hr drive from home... so that means I need to go apartment hunting.

I have been packing and shopping for the new place...and I am already sure I am going to forget a bunch of things!!

It's too much to do.. and I only have about a week and a half.

Hope you all are well.
I better go do some more packing!!
Will keep things updated here!

Another Update

I have been so bad with this blog... I actually managed to forget the blogger ID.
I just did some more guess work and came here! thank god!

So...okay update time...
I have been getting a few offers but I am just waiting for the right opportunity right now.
So I am still very jobless...
lol

Things have been rather stressful and busy...
I have driven 100s of miles for interviews...300 miles for one...
And I can say a few things about that....
1) I am so glad I dont have a speeding ticket...kinda surprised too.
2) However I did manage to get another stupid traffic violation charge for which they want me to pay $360. Aint happening!! I am going to court for that.
Should be fun to go to court eh?!?!3) I was wonderfully entertained during my drives alone in the car... I have a huge collection of burnt CDs (in my car!) and I am proud to say that I went thru most of them (except the really stupid and annoying ones)!!!
My standard reaction...'Oh my god I havn't heard that song in forever!!'

Yeah!! lol

So what is everyone else upto?
Okay if everyone read the post about the 'Real Me' ..then I should say that Tom's and mine one year anniversary is comming up!!!
Here is the funny part....we dont really know the date we first talked. We do have a rough idea...and I think we are going to approximate it to the 21st or 20th. lol. it doesnt matter what exact date it was...an appriximate is good enough! lol
I am going to TRY to write a poem... I will have it up here if I do it.

And oh wanna hear something funny...
My parents sat me down and told me that I should start looking at guys and be serious about marriage!!
They said 22 is old enough...and I agreed...for like 50 years ago!!
So yeah... I cant possibly tell them about Tom... not yet!
So now I am seriously considering telling them that I am a lesbian. I think that by knowing that...they might get off my back. But then also if I think about it...that might give them a reason to get me married quicker.
So yeah...dunno what to do. Do you think I should bring home a fake girlfriend?
lol
I need help with this... make me some suggestions please!!
I think my parents head is still stuck a few yrs back...even my friends in India havnt started looking at guys!!
RIDICULOUS!


So yeah....that's about it...
And ohh...
BTW... I am going to go buy some art supplies tommorow!! YAY!!
I really wanna draw...it's high time.
Hopefully I iwll have something soon!

take care everyone!

Update

Hello people...
Allrite so here is a quick update...
Things are going good with me and the job hunt... I have stacks of faxes sent, emails sent and all the fun job hunting things.
Good thing I havnt had to lick stamps! lol

Anyways... This could be my new home.. I could be moving to another state for this job situation.
Its excieting... and I really dont know what is going to happen and when... and I kinda like it that way! more fun!
The not so fun part.... i am most probably not gonna have internet where i live (which even i dont know where i will be)
So it means internet time only when I am at work!
great huh?
i am NOT happy about that... but hey i guess its part of the package!
shall let u know once i know more about what it is that is going to happen
everyone taek care...and thanks for stopping by!!

Taggie

Hello everyone... Thanks a bunch to all those that responded to my last post... THANK YOU VERY MUCH for all the kind words. I am so glad there are people that can understand me and accept me the way I am.
(That thing was not supposed to be bold...but Blogger is acting like a bitch!)
I have just been busy with a lot of things on my hand... so that's why I have not been able to read anyone's blog..
Sorry about that!!
Shall catch up soon!!

Anyways...after being told several times to do this taggie...I finally did it. (Are you happy now Anjan? lol jk!)
Hope everyone is well...Take care everyone!

1. Were you named after anyone?
not a person...
2. Do you wish on stars?
Actually I used to when I was younger...not any more!
3. When did you last cry?
Wednesday night/Thursday morning
4. Do you like your handwriting?
I do when I do write neatly....most of the times its a race against time...so I dont usually like it.
5. What is your favourite meat?
lol....im a Veggie.
6. What is your most embarrassing CD on your shelf?
hmmm... some country music person... (it was a gift)
7. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you?
lol hells no
8. Are you a daredevil ?
I try to be...
9. How do you release anger?
Working out, crying, cursing a LOT (lol), hmm just anything to get my mind off the topic.
10. Where is your second home?
hmm... India
11. Do you trust others easily?
Yep...definately so
12. What was your favourite toy(s) as a child?
I used to love playing with Lego...it was always fun... I would still play with them if I had em!
13. What class in school/college do you think is totally useless?
Half of the things you learn are useless....
14. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
do i?
15. Have you ever been in a mosh pit?
not really... i freak out at the sight of too many ppl or too much noise... always used to suck to travel in trains when I was in India!
16. What do you look for in a girl?
Well I look for guys... and what I look for guys... has to be taller than me (or close), funny, easy-going, not money driven.
17. Would you bungee jump?
yep...i wanna. but im really a wuss...so i guess i dunno
18. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
if they are new...then I would during the first week or so. Not otherwise.
19. What's your favourite ice cream?
mint chocolate chip, chocolate chip, and any kinda KULFI ...mmmmm good stuff
20. What are your favourite colours?
Black, blue, some white
21. What are your least favourite things?
greedy/selfish behavior, cockiness,
22. How many people do you have a crush on right now?
lol none
23. Who do you miss most right now?
Ma bf
24. What are you listening to right now?
keyboard clickin n the fan
25. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be?
purple
26. What is the weather like right now?
cool since its the middle of the night
27. Last person you talked to on the phone?
my sis
28. The "first" thing you notice about the opposite sex?
height, hair, smile, hands (i have this thing abt nice lookin hands...)
29. Do you like the person who sent you this?
I love Anjan!!
30. How are you today?
Yucky... still havnt had a bath
31. Favourite non alcoholic drink?
water... gotta love water
32. Favourite alcoholic drink?
screwdrivers
33. Natural hair colour?
Black
34. Eye colour?
black..or dark brown??
35. Wear contacts?
yep
36. Siblings?
a younger sis
37. Favourite month?
hmmm i duno...June maybe
38. Favourite food?
a lil bit of everything
39. Favourite day of the year?
too many to pick from
40. Have you ever been too shy to ask someone out?
heh yeah!
41. Scary movies or happy endings?
happy endings
42. Summer or winter?
fall and spring. lol i dont like extremes
43. Holi or Diwali?
diwali...minus the fireworks... the smoke makes me sick
44. Do you like your name?
yeah sure i guess
45. What book/magazine are you reading?
Accounting for Dummies
46. What's on your mouse pad?
no mouse pad...usin a laptop
47. What did you watch on TV last night?
I saw Primetime - Medical Mysteries
48. Favourite Smell ?
many diff things... if i had to pick one...lavendar
49. Have you ever regretted breaking up with someone?
Yes i used to...not any more...not even for an itsy bitsy second!
50. Most tiresome thing you’ve ever experienced/done?
volunteering for habitat for humanity... trying to build a home... too much work...


UPDATE - I am going out of town for a week or so... so that's the explanation for my absence... everyone take care!!

know the REAL me

Yeah....you've been warned!! The things I am about to say are definately going to be huge... Some of you reading may or may not know about it... and about it being a part of my life, but reading it here will definately be shocking..


This is my chance to come out and open up about the real me. I have thought about telling more about me on here...
And I have been thinking about doing this post for about 2-3 weeks now.
And finally here it is!!

There is so much to say.... and I am not even sure where to start...

I will begin with saying why I am doing this.
This is my way of finding out who my 'real friends' are...
For me this blog has always been an expression of my true self.
I never cared about people telling me how often I changed my template, I dont think I have ever said something I did not mean.... it was never a popularity contest for me.
The bottom line... I am who I am.
I sent messages to people on my messenger list to come read this...because I do want everyone to read this.
Well, not all will. Once some of you read some of what I have to say... you might think I am insane and stupid and stop reading.
I only ask for one thing....for all that are reading at this point...to please leave a comment and tell me what your honest opinion is.
I am going to start comment moderation... So just leave a comment like it is for me. And only me. And please be honest. If you hate me...please say so.
I really dont like fake drama...so I really do not like fake 'friendships'.
At the end of your comment, tell me if you want me to put up your comment on the blog or not. And I will do just as you wish for me to. I respect your opinion and decision, no matter what it is.
Just be very honest and speak your mind.
I know there are a few people here that are still going to think of me the same regardless... and to those.... a thank you is not enough.

Allrite... So I think that covers that...

Okay if knowing what I am talking about is killing you....PATIENCE!! Im almost there!! LOL
BTW...the template is a hint!!


Recently I was talking to a friend who knows about this 'secret' and he told me that I was just crazy (not his words). That is just what drove me to write on here..

I dont need to do it... and honestly there is no real strong reason to do this...
But I do this for me...
And again...most, if not all of you'll , wont understand why I do this..
I do this for me... and for being true to myself and my blog.
This is really private information... and if you rather not know... just stop reading...
but do comment!!

Okay...it's time....
drumroll please??!!?! lol

I am a Submissive.
Keep reading to understand...
Most relationships are vanilla, but the relationship I have with my 'partner' falls under the BDSM lifestyle.
What is it? Read the link to see and understand.

But for me.... it is who I am.
In a very breif explanation... it is about the control. (for me)
There is a lot of variety to BDSM and it's just about different preferences.

For me...it's about letting Him be in control...
and no...thats not some kinda kink you take to bed... it's about things that extends waaay beyond the bedroom!
It's about obedience, respect, trust, testing your limits, punishment and pain!! (last but not the least ofcourse! )


You all have to understand how much balls it is to keep talking about this...and I have already considered deleting this post a few times... lol

I met Tom about 10 months back...
He is my boyfriend....my Master...
He is much older than me....how old? Maybe we will talk about that stuff in another post! lol
I love him for who he is...

Our relationship is very salt-n-pepper-ish.

The pepper is all the spice associated with the lifestyle. The salt...the vanilla stuff.
We have a lot of vanilla-ish days....but with the always there hints of pepper here n there.
The hints of pepper....thats where the obedience and respect comes in place!

So anyways...

Now that you know what the 'secret' is....
Back to what I am writing for..

Like I said before I was driven to write about this when I was called to be crazy.
That was his reaction to the information about the lifestyle in general...
And that just wasnt cool.

I understand that BDSM is far from what society has called 'normal.'

To get my point across...let me give you another example.
For those in India... Americans have an accent. When I moved here, I had a hard time trying to understand that accent!
For those in America... Indians have an accent. When they call companies that have offices and call centers in India, they have a hard time understanding the person on the other end.
To Americans their way of talking is 'normal' and the same for Indians.

Now .... are you willing to change your 'accent' and talk like they do? Are you willing to spell color/colour as color just because they do?
Most importantly... are you willing to accept that their way of talking is the RIGHT way??

What is right?
That is just a personal opinion...especially when there is no real right or wrong.

So I was called crazy for actually being serious about the lifestyle and giving it more importance than something that happens in the bedroom.

Once you know more about it...if you choose to... you will understand that friend's part in calling it 'weird'
I understand why people respond to the lifestyle like that.
Its different....very different.
but what I do is my business.
I am not walking around saying that everyone should pick either a submissive or Dominant role and be a part of the lifestyle.
And likewise... I would respect others not to do so either.

What is normal...what is right... I think is one's choice...
and it should be nothing but it..

I really dont care about what people think of me..
I wouldnt have done this post if I did...
I believe in honesty and like I said,... fakeness just drives me insane.


So there you have it..
I have said what I wanted to

I have tried to stay away from providing specifics that would just be too much information!
And Im sorry if I said things you didnt want to hear...

Anyways, I am running out of things to say!
So please do comment!
Thanks!

And again....

And again.... what?

Well, first of all... a Happy Birthday to Mr Clueless!
Happy Birthday!
Hope you have a wonderful day and a wonderful life ahead!

I am sorry I am kinda running low on the right words...so I will just keep it plain and simple..
(that too a once again kinda situation!)

What else?
Ahh another good bye coming up... no no not good bye to the blog.
To that special someone... who has been visiting this week, and has made life more beautiful and meaningful.
I came across this video below and absolutely fell in love with it....
And I guess with the video I am gonna say something that I have said before (again...)
Say what?
Life is short... speak your mind. And let the ones you love and care about know how much you love and/or care about them. Because you never know if or when you will get another chance.

Sorry for not replying to comments! Will do that later!


******VIDEO REMOVED!! ********

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do

Lyrics from HERE.

Happy Birthday!!!

I love June....!!!
Time has been flying like crazy!!!
Before we will know it....June will be gone..
I can't believe I have been in the US for almost 6 years now!

I think it was into my first year when I met my fellow Gemini friend.
I believe it was when she walked into my US History class...
I remember thinking... 'Oh another FOB'
LOL
There are a lot of things I can think of when I think of you...
High School times, the drives to our college, the talks about our boyfriends, and oh the talks of running away from home...

Ok ok...it wasnt actually talks about running from home... but it was the feeling of it...

But whatever it is... It has been so wonderful knowing you Kaush
I have written so many birthday wishes posts... I feel like I am getting bad at them!
But this one is different....
Because I can actually say that I know you!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!
Hope you have a wonderful day... and a great fulfilling life ahead!
I was about to say that may all your dreams come true.... but I think I will refrain from that...cause we all know we have some dreams that we would not want to be true!! lol jk!

You have been a great friend...thanks for the times you helped me and gave me great advice..
(even though I might have ignored you! lol)

And most importantly... thanks for pushing me into this world of blogging! I have met wonderful people in this high-tech world because of you!
Love ya.
Happy Birthday again!


Update on me....
Welcome the new template!
I just needed a change.... And this one just stuck out....
I dunno why...oh wells... I like it...
Have been busy... and sick. the damn irritation in the throat just wont go away!!
and it should,.....
i shall be meeting him in about 18 hours....
i am nervous
anxious
excieted
i am happy :-)

more updates soon!

update...

I am sorry I havnt been much responsive to all your comments...
I do appreciate all of you that stop by my blog and say something...and also that choose to stay quiet...

There is just a lot going on with me of lately
And too many things to worry about right now...
I dont know how long this will last...
Might just be like a mood swing and I mightbe back blogging tommorow
I dont know...
I do know things will be a lot clearer 2-3 weeks from now...
hope you all are doing well...

I do miss visiting all of your blogs....Hope to be back soon!

100 Things About Me

1. I am a very complicated person.
2. I love music... I listen to a variety... from Eminem to Evanescence...from rap to cuddly love songs.
3. I can listen to one song over and over and over again if I like it enough.
   
4. I want a puppy...real bad.
5. I get angry real quick.
6. I also forget the anger rather quick.
7. I dont have too many friends.
8. I get along with men better than females... most of the time.
9. I like to cook.
10. I like to force people to eat what I make. LOL
11. Usually i dont like the food I make myself.
    
12. I hate politics.
13. I hate money.
14. I hate cocky people.
15. I am creative...but I lack the patience. Many times I will start on stuff... and never get it done.
16. I get easily bored.
17. I am big on romantic gestures.
18. I love hugs.
19. Not many people, if any at all, know the REAL complete me.
20. It is easy for me to fall in love.
21. I bite my nails.
22. I get pissed off if I am having a bad hair day.
23. I am a cry baby.
24. I have a low tolerance for bull shit.
25. I want to have twins.
26. I want 3 kids (total).
    
27. I get sick often... I guess I really dont take good care of myself.
28. I dont like to sleep.
29. I like silence.
30. Thundering fascinates and scares me.
31. I read horoscopes often.
32. I like doing things at the spur of the moment.
33. I like all the unimaginable turns life can take.
34. I hate fights.
35. Most of my younger cousins don't like me cause of my anger.
36. I am stubborn.
37. I am also obidient.
38. I want to get a tattoo and a piercing.. (not in my ears)
39. I want to make out with someone that has a tongue piercing. Wierd? Maybe a lil bit!
    
40. I like watching TV.
41. I like watching Oprah.
42. I dont like being called an "American" or an "Indian." I am ME...thats it!
43. I dont care much about what people think of me.
44. I hate it when people dont do things they want to because it will affect how others look at them.
45. I like questioning things most people take for granted.
46. I want to get drunk and have a "wild" night.
47. I have never been 'drunk'
48. I am a rough driver.
49. I love speeding.
50. I want to buy myself a pimped out car and then participate in a cross-country race.
51. I like my Lancer.
52. I think most men are misunderstood.
    
53. I like calling him for no reason.
54. I love it when he says that he loves me.
55. I hate my aunt (dad's sis). I got into a verbal mini cat fight with her... and I loved it!!
56. I like it when I stand up for myself... I dont do it too often!
    
57. I dont like very religious people.
58. I believe in destiny.
59. I want to persue a career in art for myself.
60. I am lazy.
61. I like coffee.
62. I like my blog (there was a point where I didnt)
63. I have another anonomous blog.
64. I am a tomboy.
65. I once told myself I would never date a white guy.
66. I need alone, all-by-myself time every day.
67. I am shy and reserved.
68. I curse in front of my parents.
69. My mom laughs when I curse at or flick off a person driving too slow.
70. I say we are the Indian Osbourne family.
71. I miss the rain in India.
72. I am little bit of a neat freak.
73. I lie sometimes... I AM a neat freak.
    
74. I like american chinese food.
75. I have been on a blind date.
76. My first b/f was a great kisser.
77. All the guys I have dated in the past have been as tall as me, 1-2 inches shorter, or 1 inch taller.
78. Shorter guys have officially been banned. (as boyfriends!!) ;-)
    
79. I think beer is nasty and stinky.
80. Vodka is another story!
    
81. I like getting a tan.
82. I like to travel.
83. I have been travelling a lot of lately.
84. I want to drive from the US east coast to the US west coast and back!
    
85. I am a low-maintenance kinda chick.
86. I like taking pictures.
87. I eat a lot of cough drops.
88. I like the smell of lavendar.
89. I love it when someone plays with my hair.
90. I think I will go to hell...if there is a place like that...
91. I like to flirt.
92. I believe a woman should know how to manipulate her man.
93. She should also be ready to pay for her actions..!! (OTK spanking style) lol
94. Promises are usually made to be broken.
95. I am a goof ball.
96. It is beautiful when it snows.
97. I hate bugs.
98. This is a long list!
99. I respect you if you have read all of this.
100. My name starts with the letter 'B'. LOL

PS - Shall reply to comments from the previous post soon.
Enjoying my last few days with my cousins!!
Shall have some pictures of the places we have visited in the next post!

blabber

I just want to say something here....

You know those times... when you have sooo much going on in your head... you cant possibly consciously know what all that is in there...

Kinda like when you are stading on the shoulder of a highway.. and the cars just zipping by,....
Do you notice the make or model? Do you know the car color? Was it a man or woman driving?

Isn't it amazing the number of questions that exist in the world... even more questions that you can't answer...

Watching the DaVinci Code has just got my brains going crazy... in a good way...
I know it's fiction...
But it was made to mess with people's minds!
So in my case it's working...

And again...right now... I feel millions of thoughts crossing my mind...
I went from talking about this...to cars...to DaVinci Code...

Do you need any more proof? lol

Does anyone have those kinda moments?
Do you really have all those thoughts going thru your head... or is your brain capable of only a limited few?
Do you know?

lol... okay I know I sound weird here...
I am just exceptionally fascinated...
With what?

lol.


Okay stop...don't be judgemental.
Let's play a game okay....
Just ask yourself one question. One random question... just anything....
And then keep the questions going...for 2 minutes.
That's all I am asking for.

When you comment...put in the first question you started with...and the question you are at at the end of 2 minutes.
Let's see if you know what kinda things your brain is capable of...

Alright Ill do it to...
I start with... What is my brain capable of?
I end with.... Is there a difference between the things you know... and the things you think you know or the things your conscious self knows?

Sheer Randomness!!

Graduated!!

I graduated!! YAAY!!
But still a long way to go! LOL

nothing else to say
probably wont be here for the next 2 weeks or so cause Ill be busy with cousins from India!

hope u all are well!!

Random

New template up HERE

And also something else...

you gotta listen to 'buttons' by the pussycat dolls...

too hot



more laters!

Amazing

So I found this one link thru someone else...
And this is an absolutely amazing video...
its an arts/crafts related video...but this isn't anyhting 'normal'
this is truely amazing...
check it out...

click HERE for the video!!

Cinco de Mayo

Hey people...
It's May already!!

This year has been so fast. And so wonderful :-)
Amazing things have happened... met wonderful people, still have a few (okay one) wonderful personal to meet in little over a month, been a lotta happy times, and finally after so long have enjoyed college
Kinda weird...cause I never did. It was more like an ugly stage I just didnt want to deal with and wanted to get it over with...
And now... maybe I missed out... but hey...it's all good. :-)
I guess this is one of those happy days..
Have family from India arriving tommorow :-)
So more good times...
Except for the exceptional times when my two cousins manage to drive me nuts!!
Which btw doesnt take much effort for those that don't know me too well!! LOL
Hmm... hope you all are doing well!!


Oh I found this taggie somewhere... its interesting..
After the # of years ago, say 3 things...

20 years ago...
~ I was a cute little baby girl.
~ I was very sick.
~ Doctors said my "end" could be near **They obviously were wrong! :-)**

10 years ago...
~ I was very naive.
~ I had long hair (longer than what they are now!).
~ I didn't talk much.

5 years ago...
~ I was madly in love (with the wrong guy!)
~ I missed India too bad.
~ My hair was really short.

3 years ago...
~ Was around the time when I smoked my first cig.
~ Life was pretty ugly.
~ I was convinced there was no such thing as love.

1 year ago...
~ I was sick and tired of studing.
~ I was discovering new things about the real me.
~ I really got into blogging (if I get my timeline right!)

So far this year...
~ I have learned several valuable lessons.
~ Maybe fallen in love :-)
~ Tried to bring my two extremes into one harmonized person... lol the keyword...TRIED!

Yesterday...
~ I tried to study!
~ I was nervous about not doing good on today's final.
~ I procrastinated.

Today....
~ I am happy.
~ I did my bed. LOL
~ Took that hard exam... (did pretty good)

Tommorow...
~ I will be excieted about the extra people in the house.
~ I will study.
~ I will try to sleep in.

In the next year...
~ I want to have a good stable job.
~ Maybe do some reading.
~ Try to spend more time on drawing

:-D

aggravated

I am so pissed off...
I really need a freaking job... I am applying to every damn stupid job available.... but I just don't hear back form anyone...
Am I like the only one graduating in a few days and still completely clueless of what the heck I am going to do??
And who I hear back from... they either need citizens...or someone with experience...
Fucked up shit

Sumthin

1. Grab the book neartest you, turn to page 18 and find line 4.
"In most countries, voting rights have only been awarded to women in the last thirty years." What do you know!!!

2. Stretch your left arm as far as you can....
I feel a wall

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Probably the news this morning....unattentively

4. Without looking guess what time it is.
hmmmm 7PM

5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
7.17pm

6. With the exception of the computer, what do you hear?
The AC blow above me..

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Last stepped out 2 or 3 hrs ago.. to get the mail.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
I dunno...my blog I guess...

9. What are you wearing?
Capri style pajama bottoms and Meredith College tshirt.

10. Did you dream last night?
I think I did dream of HIM

11. When did you last laugh?
2 or 3 hrs ago.

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Hmm...paint, AC vent ~ thats on one angular side of the wall...

13. Seen anything weird of lately?
Hmmm naw

14. What do you think of this quiz?
It cool..

15. What is the last film you saw?
FULL ~ Scary Movie 4
Not completely but more recently...Taxi 9211

16. If you became a multimillionare overnight, what would you buy?
A gorgeous house in India... and also maybe some other exotic location!!

17. Tell me something about you I dunno.
Wow... tell you more eh!! lol. I am thinking about doing something REALLY wild and crazy for my birthday... *wink* lol

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt and politics, what would you do?
Distroy the feeling of greed...esp for money!!

19. Do you like to dance?
Not really...

20. George Bush
Fucking a$$hole.
BTW...if he sees this... why dont you pay for the RIDICULOUS gas prices! biyatch!!!

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Hmm...not sure..too many choices.

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Eshaan. LOVE that name!

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
LOL...i alredy am!!

24. What do you want GOD to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
Now do you believe that I do exist!!?!!

25. 4 people who must also do this meme in their journal?
anyone that got the balls

help

please visit this page and comment!!

Dual Burthday Bums

Yep...dual birthday bums... so here goes...my blogs cherry got popped!

Two very close friends...
Both have a lot in similar...but still they are unique in their own special ways

I couldnt help but laugh when I realized that they both shared the same birthdays...
I have known both for about the same time...
They both almost always appear offline
And my first time talking to both of them was kinda weird funny something... its hard to put to words but definately cant forget the first convos I had with both of them... so different.. and yet so much the same!!

oh well....here goes....
happy birthday vicky and dee!!!!

Where do I start...!!!
You both are such amazing personalities..

Lets go alphabetically...
Dee...
Hmm where do I start....
Thanks to you and our friday pool "dates" I am now close to beating ur ass up in hte game! lol
You are so much fun to be around and I only wish you werent all that busy with work all the time...!!
And I know this isnt gonna to be as good as all the birthday wishes u will get.... but hey it comes from the heart...
ill let u in on a secret... every time i say that i hate you.. i only mean that I HATE YOU VERY MUCH! lol
just kidding!
love ya!!

Vicky...
September 11.... you claim or rather guess ...or maybe both ... that I am a tall gujju doctor... 2 out of 3 right...so not bad! you even got my last name right!!
so many unanswered questions.... but I think thats the best part!!
you are so unpredictable... and thats the best part about you...
cant thank you enough for all the advice
muahz!


Both of youll are such darlings.... enjoy your birthdays!!



** please look at the previous post too and please visit my yahoo group...please please please!!! THANK YOU!***

help me!!

Hi people
Okay now this is a desperate plee to everyone here
I am doing a project in my women studies class... and we did a topic on safe sex.
So I would really appereciate it if you guys could just join the group and contribute somehow...
please please please

And this is not only for the women...its for hte guys
And yeah...please act like u are sexually active if you arent...

you will understand what im talking about by just following the link on the right
please do it for me!!
please!!

I will love you forever
lol
do you get the idea abt how desperate i am!! lol
allright now... go go go!! please!!

thanks a million!!

blah

Where do I start....
I almost dont really look at this page any more...
and when I do...I dont really feel like commenting back to you all
nor visiting your pages...
I guess there is so much on my mind I dont really care about others lives.... nothing personal..

I questioned and still do if I should talk about this..
or even publish this post..

What do you do when you care about a person deeply... and you know there is something special there...but that person doesnt seem to be putting into the relationship as much as you are...
what do you do when your partner doubts and is skeptical about the future...
just someone who has their guards up at all times

what do you do when you just hold back on saying i love you even when you really want to
what do u do when you know that person in front of you is the right person... but you infortunately met him at the wrong time
what do u do when for a long long time you wished for one thing... and then when that thing is about to happen...you just wish it wasnt going to

what do you do when the person who you think of all day and night just doesnt have time to pull away from paperwork, housework, yardwork, and whatelse

what do you do when most of the times you call that person you get their answering machine..


i cant publish this...

composed april 12th

Monthly Changes

Thank you all that commented...
Looks like its going to be Monthly Templates!

Check out the April template and make comments!!

Of Templates...

Gone are those days when finding templates was such a pain...
And now... in about 4 months I have collected about 75 different templates!!
Just all kind of different things.. I think the template should kinda depict how things are with yourself..
Most of them coming from BlogSkins...
Christmas, flowers, being in love, and getting dumped..
Hey you gotta have a back up plan!!
The collection keeps going on growing almost continuously...

So first I thought of having a new blog dedicated to different templates for blogger users...
But then... that would be a lot of work.. and I think I have enough on my plate for right now!
So... Coming Soon will be a certain template ...either weekly or monthly...
I am leaning more towards a monthly thing... but i dunno... maybe biweekly..
oh well..

So do comment and let me know what your personal choice is...
The choice are weekly, biweekly, or monthly
Let me know what youll think!

bonjour

Bonjour monsieur et maitresse!
Remercier vous tout pour votre commenter. Le plan etre monter avec quelque chose ennuyant. ecrire quelque chose dans francais... un peu communiquer avec Anz... Je pensee que je retirer mon français livre et ecrire quelque chose sur mon propre...
Mais bon vieux ennui donner un coup de pied dans... Je etre non egal supposer retarder avec ainsi beaucoup.
Desole pour slaughtering le amusement!
Hmmm ainsi ce etre le point ou je obtenir coller... ce qui je parler...
Je ne comprend pas.
Je etre searching sur le enchainement et trouver ces etonnant enchainement emplacement avec drole maudire mot.
Ainsi ce etre ce qui je.
Je etre going dire quelque chose mauvais ou drôle dans hmmm 15 different languages. Ainsi ici aller!

1. FRENCH
Va te faire foutre!

2. SWEDISH
Skit ocksa

3. ITALIAN
Mi hai rotto i coglioni

4. ZULU
Uyahlanya yini?

5. DUTCH
Mafkees

6. GERMAN
Deine Zahne sind wie die Sterne so gelb und so weit auseinander

7. RUSSIAN
Yebany v rot

8. AZERI
Pokhuvu ye

9. LATIN
Plenus stercoris es

11. CAJUN
Salope

11. SINGLISH
Si Bak Kau

12. TALISH
Kim shti qav

13. JAVANESE
Asu

14. OCCITAN
Cagar

15. SLOVAK
Pičovina


LOL....go figure~

naughty naughty!

Before you read this...please go visit Anz blog.... read what she had to say... and then come back and read this!

Wrote a blabber post for the heck of it...however that was in English, but now this one is in French. For those who know French good enough for you for those who don't please avoid cursing me. This is a cool idea shared between a blogger friend and me (you would know the name soon) This is a post that aims to irritate everyone...and I hope I am achieving this objective to a certain extent. I feel so devilish! If the above mentioned words make you feel like I have lost my nuts and bolts then I never said I had them intact . Kaush now try to make sense out of this.


LOL
Come back to see how naughty I get! *devilish grin*

random questions

1.What time of the day is it at your end right now?
8:25pm

2.What did you last eat?
desi food

3.What are you wearing right now (hopefully you're wearing something ahemm)?
t-shirt, pjs

4.What was your weekend like?
booring... didnt do anything! lol it was a typical weekend!

5.Did you sleep well last night?
Was up until late.. but did sleep well in the amount of time that i was asleep

6.What's your favorite time of the day?
late in the night

7.Who did you last kiss?
ummm... damn its been a while!

8.Did you see any cute guy/gal today?
yea...sure

9.When did you last speak to your mum/dad?
before 15 mins or so

10.When did you last have an argument and have you patched up?
last one...hmmm maybe a week ago.. and yes.

11.Who/what cant you live without right now?
hehe my lappie.. and my darling tommy.. *wink*

12.Are you in love right now?
Yes... lol no surprises here!!
what i mean is that its a huge world...there is always something to love!

13.If you met me in real, what would be your first expression?
ud see me as a shy person at first

14.Have you ever loved someone who's already taken?
lol yeah! sigh.

15.If I came over to your place, what would you do?
ummm...offer a drink.

16.How do you watch TV?
depends on whats on... usally multi tasking

17.What do you need right now?
another slice of the juicy watermelon thats in my fridge

18.What's your favorite sense?
umm... i cant discriminate!

19.Where would be the the ideal spot to be with someone you love?
up in the mountains... cuddling together in bed under a huge warn blanket..

20.What's closest to your bed?
Accounting books. gaah... need to get back to the books!!

Cheers

blabber...

It is just an urge to write something... or rather I want to see something other than the italicized poem!
Im writing a paper on Female Genital Mutilation... its such a sad and disturbing topic!
Anyways...
Last night I was looking at my old old computer and found a whole bunch of poems and forward emails and all that kinda stuff
I went thru this phase of saving every worthy forward email...
I got quite a collection!!
And I had completely forgot about it...
So... it was a good discovery...!!

I know I sound boring... it feels like its been a while since I have written a random blabber post!!
LOL


Any ways... I put up something more on my lil cooking blog...so do check it out...
The link is on the right!!
Until next time....

that thing called love

I hope Im not living in a dream...
If I am, then I would like to wake up with you by my side...
Thats all I want for my life and nothing more..
If not you, then there will be nobody...
If not now, then it will never be...
If not in this lifetime, then Ill never be born again..
for it will take generations to find you again...


** Another online discovery!

quote of the day....

So I read this on my college campus... it made me laugh and the bitches around me stare at me like I was stupid...

Behaved women are not remembered in history!

LOL.
Gotta love a womens college!!

dissapointed

This is so damn dissapointing...
I was blog hopping and I have been seeing a lot of hindi pop up...
Now this is me seeing hindi after a long time...
I didnt give it a try until a few minutes ago...
And... well... I cant really read it! I can barely read hindi!
I have to think of what the alphabet is...
It makes me mad...
DAMN!
Its sad.... i know!

hindi was always somewhat of a hard thing for me.... but reading was never a problem... the problem was the talking..
even 6 or 7 years back when you would have heard be talking...it would be like an ABCD
Arghhh...

drum roll

YAAAY!!!!
Finally a new template... I fell in love with this one at first sight..
Kinda reminded me of this picture I found online...



So...hmm I dont really have much to say..
So... cya laters!!

i dunno...

Im afraid this is actually happening...
Im addicted to you...
And I cant believe the things I do..

I ache for your touch...
Just one finger tip on your lips...
Please... dont budge..

I still hold your hand...
Hold your hand when I sleep...

If only you could wipe my tears...as I weep

I want to...
Touch you, hold you, kiss you, and make love...
Make love just one more time..

Please let me...
It hurts so much
Please...consider it...
As I am kneeling at your feet.

**Please look at the previous post and vote on which template you like the best, if you havnt already done so...Thanks a bunch!! **

Brokeback Mountain

BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN
*It will probably be a better idea to stop reading right here if you are an extreme homophobic!*




One Saturday evening... at the movies...

"So what movie do you want to see?"
"We could see Brokeback Mountain....it came out earlier in the week... "
"I havnt heard the name... what is it about?"
"Gay country boys having sex out in the wilderness back in the sixties!"
"Haha... no I think I am going to pass on that.... I am not in the mood for gay porn."


I am not sure if people have heard of this movie or not.... but if you have... did you react somewhat in that manner? What are you thinking right now?
Would you be interested in watching the secretive love story of Jack Twist and Ennis Del Mar?
I said no to it at first....

And then I hear more and more about it as time goes by since my awareness of its existance.
There are people actually watching that movie!!
Its making profits!!!
ITS NOMINATED FOR OSCARS!!!!
Woah... how did that happen????

Trying to know what the big hype was all about.... I download the movie.
It got done at about 11pm... so I thought I would see a little bit and then catch the rest later...
But ...... thats what I thought would happen...


I was hooked within the first 15 minutes.. I could have been within the first 5 minutes...and did not even recognize it........
The beauty and the magesty of the great outdoors was sensational..





They were stuck out there....
All alone....
Maybe it was bound to happen....

There was passion and fervor...
The anger and the fear of those queer desires and not being accepted by society

Still.... they fell in love...





This is hands down one of the most amazing movies I have seen...
The story... is just so pure and simple... and not very traditional!

A secret.... and their journey through time....

The music fits the movie perfectly...
Heath Ledger and Jake Gyllenhall do a marvellous job.... engaging in acts of passion and love.

If you havnt seen the movie...please do!!

I dont do the selling stuff too well... but you really gotta watch this movie.

And maybe if you are not comfortable with the homosexuals.... maybe this will make you understand them better...
I dunno...
You know what my point is...
I loved it!

Hope those that do decide to check it out do too...




** Allrite people I need some help... It is that time for a template change and I need your help....
There are 3 I like... please check them out and lemme know what you think...

1 ~~ First one...

2 ~~ Second one...
This one is a little hard to navigate maybe...click on Entries ...

3 ~~ Third one..


So there goes!! please check them out and tell me what you all think! Thanks! *MUAHZ*

Hope things are well with everyone in Gujrat and the current earthquake situation

LOVE

If you had to make a choice...which would you pick...

An almost perfect partner, but a short lived companionship


OR


A life long commiment and companionship with someone not exactly perfect...but hmmm ok sure he is ok types.



I know the question has been asked before.... a lot of times
But do we really know...

Why would you give up on perfection
Even if it is short lived
Why would you not want to be loved by someone...that will love you live no one else can....
Why...
Because we are so weak

Why do matters of the heart and love have to be so painful

Why is love the most beautiful thing... and also one of the most painful thing....

If you have never fallen in love,... you probably wonder what it is...how it feels...
And then when it happens...
I think it changes your life forever...even though the different possible consequesces

If it all works out for you.... you have found the ONE
If it doesnt.... you either move on...or you dont
If you move on....you restart that search for love
You try to find that special someone... remembering the things that went wrong the first time... hoping it doesnt happen again...
If you dont move on.... it stays within you ....


If you havnt been in love...it will be the most amazing thing...

If you have been in love... I think you have gone though a change because of that enchanting and captivating thing..

Take a moment...
Try to remember the first time you felt like you were in love...
the first time your heart skipped a beat when some said they loved you

There is no point to this post...
Maybe I should have mentioned that before
But maybe this got you thinking...
Maybe it reminded you of things or of someone from the past,...
Things you havnt thought about in a while...
If this brings back memories you wish you could forget....my appologies


Where did this come from...... My Heart Will Go On

bitchy

i feel sooooo bitchy
i want an ugly cat fight
i am mad
i am hsgdgfdsfhgdsjfs
fuck you

The American View of India

The American View of India

For some reason I am seeing a lot of things on the situation in India today...

First thing in the morning..when I turned on theTV, it was te first thing on the news. Some reporter doing a special series thing where he goes to India and talks about this and that. About how the poverty situation is getting completely out of control. How India is the a poor country. Most of the people, if not all, are below the poverty line..

Yes I know thats not true... but that is what they make it seem.

In the past 5 years, I have seen several shows and programs that mention things about India... and almost every time they mention India, the first images that they show are those that push India down...






Why do images like these have to be the itroductory glances of India, for those that do not know about this third world country...
Why not of the amazing number of architectural achievements, of the beauty of nature...

And as I write this.... its being mentioned on Oprah too... and Meg Ryan visits India... and she talks about her stay in Delhi.... in the video she talks about how people earn $0.50 and $1.50 a day... but why not convert it in Rupees and say how that is more than what they think it is... the folks can buy themselves meals and have some kinda clothes on their back with that money!

I guess I kind of understand now why most Americans make comments like...
Oh you speak great English!
or....
Did you speak any English when you were in India..

You cant really blame them... the media provides half truths...

I recently visited a friend in Washington DC, and she took me around to check out things in the locality...
And I saw a bunch of poor people!
A thing like poverty exists everywhere!
Walking around the streets reminded me of my recent India visit.. because my friend asked if looking at the poverty there reminded me of the poverty situation in India.

A guy was sitting at the door of a little convinient store that had been closed down...
He was trying to fit himself between the walls around the main entrance, trying to avoid the strong winds...
Isnt that bad....
So why dont you see pictures like those when you hear about the greatest country in the world... America!



I know the poverty in America is only a fraction of what it is in India... but its still there!
But still...it almost never gets mentioned.
There are so many people that see this country as the glory land...
Is it really..... you be the judge!

When I moved here, I had a hard time with this.. and blamed the stupid Americans for asking me some really stupid questions about India...
But I understand why now...
The finger should be pointed at a whole another group of poeple...


Check out the below link to view the story
Thanks Kaush for the link!

http://abcnews.go.com/GMA/story?id=1677088&page=1

nutty

I am officially going nuts
I am restless
I cant stop shaking my legs..
I want that coke sitting right in front of me..
I was to grab it... and drink out of it ...and smash it
I havnt had any in a month...










Ok FINE...its a lie
I had a can yesterday
But I really hadnt before yesterday

I am blogging compulsively...
I dont want to reply to comments
I desperately want a new template




What on earth is happenening!!!!!!!!!!

pet peeves

Pet Peeves

I hate list!

• I hate it when people lie... and it is very obvious that they are doing so.
• I hate it when people judge a book by its cover
• I hate money hungry people.
• I hate how fake some people can be online.
• I hate females taller than me.
• I hate people that never return a call.
• I hate it when people visit my blog only when they see my comment on their blog.
• I hate cocky people.
• I hate it when people try to brainwash you and try to make you agree with what they say.
• I hate it when drunk folks say things that they SHOULDNT be saying.
• I hate when people do drugs...and think thats cool.
• I hate it when people say things about me that are not true.
• I hate it when people keep messing with me.
• I hate it when people butter up to people... very cheap!
• I hate feeling too cold or too hot.
• I hate being hungry, and not having anything to eat or not knowing what I want to eat.
• I hate politicians and politics....ALL OF THEM!
• I HATE when Hindus hate Muslims just cause of their religion.. and vice versa.
  
• I hate racist people.
• I hate when people give advice...without me asking for it or when I dont personally think I need it.
• I hate it when I get really really angry.
• I hate it when people question me being Indian or American. Or when they make comments on how not Indian I am.
• I hate bugs.
  
• I hate when people complain all the time
• I hate when I complain...