Not just with one thing in particular....just everything on a whole...
Tom is busy with things at his end...and we haven't talked in a while....
And no it's not like we haven't talked at all..... we do talk...but a few minutes here and there.... but I am used to spending hours and hours talking to him....
Oh well...I better get used to the not talking....he stars work...and with his night work schedule and the 3 hr time difference we will go on our 'weekend schedule'....where we will probably get time to talk only on the weekend!
So yeah...good times eh!?!?!
Then in the past few days a friend at work has gotten into some legal crap.... and I am so worried about him.
And he didn't even do anything wrong... just a bunch of guys being stupid but he didn't do anything wrong...but isn't opening his mouth.... just as a way to protect his friend.
I wasn't even sure if there were people like that who really existed any more...
Anyways....so that's on my mind....
I am no fun when I have several things on my mind....
And then speaking of work...this one guy I am supposed to do the accounting for has been really been getting on my last nerves...his work is such a shit load...and if I find some shit myself (and doing my job) he seems to hate me more....
It stinks when we feel so much negativity from one person towards you....I could give examples to make a point but he has really tested my patience and tolerance in the past few months....
I HATE his guts....I really do
Oh well... if this keeps going on I said to myself I would be asked to be moved to another group. I wouldn't 'give up' and pass on this if it wasn't affecting me this way.... I always said that I wanted to do something that I can just leave behind when I go home... but this whole situation with him just makes me very mad.
Whatever....feels good to just talk abt this shit....
And then I have this new thing bothering me today....
My ex contacted me today....the one that I thought I was madly in love with.... I never had my peace with the way things ended.... there was no explanation...no conversation... it just happened... It was weird.... I was ignored...lol
And it was worse cause I was led on to believe there was something serious between us....
He talked to me abt marriage... he brought it up! Now that is just weird... why would a guy do that if he didn't care.... or maybe he was a big time player and it was just a big game for him.....
I would like to just know why...or what...or if it was ever real....
I just wanna finally put it behind me....His good friend is also a very good friend of mine... And it would be nice to just go to being friends...and not have it so that H (our common friend) can't mention A (my ex) without it being weird for me...
Anyways...he contacted me on Orkut (where I am met such long lost friends...love that site!) and then emailed me.... asking for my phone number...and i just ignored that at first....didnt think us exchanging phone numbers is a good idea...but then he asked 2 more times...and I didn't want him to think im not over him...so I just gave it to him.... Am I over him? Yes... I don't really have feelings for him any more... I don't regret anything that happened...but I just want to know what happened....what caused the movement from the perception of being in love to being completely deserted....Or if there was some reason and/or explanation to it....Don't think it's too much to ask for...
And I don't know if that will be answered or not....it's just been so damn long....Last time I saw him was like 5-6 years back....Maybe things are better left unanswered....
I wouldn't think I would ever be in contact with him again....
I remember him.... I wonder what he might look like now....
Why?
Feelings are just messed up sometimes....
Update...
did this stupid palm reading thing online...look at wat it said...
"A palmist would say that you will be married multiple times or have several committed relationships that do not lead to marriage. It will be up to you at some point to make a decision that will either drive you toward or away from each of these relationships. A palmist would say that you will have the opportunity to have at least one child, probably including a girl. The decision to embrace this opportunity to bring children into your life is yours."
haha thats too funny. married multiple times...great!!
link here
