The Bad Times Seem To Be Back

Things seem to be back at being rough again....
Last weekend Tom told me that his trip might be getting cancelled/postponed.
It's a long story why it isn't happening and I don't even really want to talk about it...
It's just a mixture of feelings...I understand...but I am also sad and angry.... Yes, I am being selfish but I can't help it...It just sucks more cause we had been planning the trip for so long now...
I miss him so damn much...
He is angry about it too...and on top of that he has no internet access this week...so not only have I not really talked to him...the last time we talked we didn't really end it at a happy note...

It's just not fucking fair...

I haven't really said much on our non-vanilla blog (not sure if I mentioned that on here on not...)
I don't want to be selfish...but I am....
I meant to write here earlier this week...but I just didn't know what to say...

Today I happen to go to a non-vanilla friend's blog and I read that her Master passed away not too long ago....
I can't even imagine what that would feel like...
I am not sure how I would be able to survive the loss of someone so close and dear to your heart....

It's just so hard... And I feel so sorry for her.......

It's amazing how quickly things can change...

Crappy Week

I think this week has just been stressful.

I got sick last Friday and then it just got worse Sunday and Monday. I had to call in sick at work on Tuesday and visited a doc on Wed.
Apparently I was suffering from pollen allergies and also had a sinus infection.
Trust me...it isn't fun!
About 6.5 yrs back when I moved to the states I thought it was ridiculous how the Americans complained about allergies and all those things relating them. They always had a long list of things they were allergic to, and it was always amusing.
And now...here I am, suffering from pollen allergies and now I understand where they come from.
It's not fun when you have a runny nose and sharp pain only in a certain spot on your head,...AND on top of that everyone at work things you are supercontagious and doesn't want anything to do with you.
Okay...maybe it's not that extreme..but people definately think they will catch something even if they spend a few seconds around you...
Come on...it's alllergies... I ain't no doctor...but I don't think I can pass on my allergies to someoene....please correct me if I am wrong!!

Anyways...yes, now I am one of them.
So I was super sick Tuesday thru Thursday.
My darling Tommy kept calling me every now and then and kept checking on me...which was so cute!! lol. sorry...helpless romantic. I know!!
Anyways...
So then today my manager was just being a bitch and complaing and a whole bunch of crap that I don't wanna talk about and at the end of the day I was just tired...
So while I was driving back home from work I thought today woiuld be a good day to get drunk...

Now at first I thought about going for the regular Smirnoff Ice that becomes my 'comfort' giver after a crazy day at work.,..But this wasn't a crazy day at work...It was a nasty week... I thought I would go for something that would positively give me more of a buzz than the usual....
So I grabbed the Sierra Nevada Beer...

I am definately not a beer person...but this isn't any beer.. Or so was I told by my dear boyfriend. He loves this beer...and I thought what the heck... I wanna get drunk... and this just might do the trick..
Okay...so I tried it...and this thing is just plain NASTY...
it smells disgusting and it tastes disgusting...
There is no way I am drinking that... 2 sips of it was enough to make me feel absolutely disgusted... and now I am too lazy to go and get me something else...
So not only was it $8 gone to waste.... I can't (won't) even get drunk now!!!

Wonderful week!!!